Lina Bo Bardi / [no title]

Since last last Wednesday it has been

Weekly Math homework due on weds

2 Presentations- one in marketing one in art history on Thursday

Proofs and my architecture assignment due on Monday

Arch assignment was stacking paper on structure made of

60 pieces of paper

Presentation in marketing about Disneyland’s rising prices on Tuesday

Weekly math homework due on Wednesday

Art history formal analysis paper due on Thursday SESC Pompei

Co advising apps for orientation week due on Friday

Then today which was my computer science exam

As well as my arch assignment due date

Arch assignment was a function map

Biked in the rain to the park to search for children

No children out in the rain

So went to the zoo

Bought a grasshopper from Julian in front of the zoo for $7 ( but he only gave back 12 for 20)

Saw some animals in the rain

Including this majestic cougar on top of a rock

Found some children in some huts

Today I had an interview with Asociacion CREAR

Non profit in Costa Rica

I’ll probably end up going and I’m very excited

Just have to really brush up my Spanish

Just gotta learn how to say What does that mean

And verb tenses

I need spring break so bad

The thing with college is

Normally I have a lot of free time

But during times like these I have none

So technically most of the time I can do extracurriculars

Like act and do music

But not times like this, which are only about 10-20% of the time cause they’re so condensed

I really shouldn’t be writing this rn cause I do have an 8 am tomorrow

Yanks are in spring training a lot of young talent

Anjudar hit a walk off today

Rice basketball sucks

Football might be better under Bloomgren

Women’s basketball will have an even better year next year probably

I was actually traumatized after the test today

I didn’t know how to solve anything

I think I blanked a little too because I was getting nervous

Gotta work harder to not fail this class

Haven’t thought about much other than school for a while

Really still need a job

If I fail this class I don’t know what I’m going to do

I’m thinking about pitching a project where I buy a shipping container on campus and maintain it

Starting an entrepreneurial thing on campus called rice projects

Hopefully it’ll become something

Black panther is out apparently it’s good

I want these blogs to be like time capsules

That’s why I’m mentioning as much stuff as possible

Like how Paul George and Carmelo are on the thunder right now

Barely beat the magic today- I’m worried about their playoff chances

Meanwhile houston is on a like 11 game win streak

I need to make music

Need to give myself new life

Need to figure out what I’m doing over spring break

Surprisingly I’m probably enjoying life more right now than I was when I wasn’t doing much

I hope my grades get better I’ll work harder at it

I just keep on getting distracted by things I don’t have

Stupid huh

Ama fell yesterday and I cried

Miss her

Making Money Moves

It’s 3:36 AM

I walked out of my dorm room

After watching Three Billboards Outside Ebbing, Missouri

Incredible movie casting really made this piece fall right into place

Evil and good in a tussle here with people forgiving here and acting out in their anger there

Great scene is where a guy that another guy threw out a second floor window and beat up

Sees the guy that beat him up now burnt because he was in a fire

Get pulled up next to him in the hospital

And offers him something to drink

Even after the guy who beats him up reveals who he is under all the bandages on his head

Incredible stuff really

But I walk out of my dorm room and I hear like people

Mass of people on our college’s trampoline

So I’m like going to check it out you know

And I see like people

I’mArmando

Stacey

Esther

Vincent

Alec recognized me from meeting me at work a few months ago

Beril who didn’t recognize me

And kaarthika a friend

Interesting huh

They were trying to mass in the center to try and get the trampoline to hit the ground

Then another friend named Elan rolls up with his campaign posters

Note that it’s 3:00 in the morning then

And we go to another dorm to put them posters up

And I kind of fucked with him the whole time acting like I was out of it taping his posters on the front

Fun times

Reminded me of the time we went around harvesting clocks

It was crane day today college tradition basically just people getting drunk

Also Travis and Eshvar’s birthdays

So I should have gotten something for them I feel

But I’ll figure something out

An IOU as of now

I still need a summer job

Will be interviewing for a Costa Rica position soon

Finished a linear algebra exam today

Felt fine but might get shit on I’m not sure

Also went to the recreational center to pump some iron I’m still weak

21’s with 20 pounds

Can’t bench more than 25 on each side

Dumbbell curls with 10’s

But feeling and seeing the progress

Thinking about the tattoo

Thinking about getting words from my chest out to my shoulder

Like the scars I keep on seeing on basketball players

It’s the All Star Weekend by the way

Bogdan Bogdonivic hit like 7 threes for team world in the rising stars game

Quavo won the celebrity game haha autocorrect changed that to Quack

Our baseball team beat Samford on a walk off today 8-7 first spring game

Yankees starting soon too

Tattoo would either say

Greatness > Calamity > Mediocrity

Or

No todo lo que brilla es oro

All of a sudden the font has fucked me because I copied and pasted something

I’ve kind of dropped off with making music since studies took over

But it’ll happen sometime

Still feeling like I’m not out with people enough

But that’s slowly changing as I get used to living on campus again

I’ve noticed that

Things are always shakey in transition

Especially with your emotions

You’re emotions are going to tell you things aren’t right

And that things were better before

But trust me things will get better as long as you don’t let that stop you

I’ve been sleeping a lot too

Sat on the swing today with Priya and just talked was going to watch Hang the DJ with her but a bunch of people

Smoking weed

Were just kind of standing on the stairs to my place

One of them was one of my freshmen

I was going to say one last thing

Oh before that one last thing there was a school shooting in Florida 17 dead sick sick kid

Oh

These things don’t really go together well at all

Picking up some info about my prospective students for this weekend And I see this girl

She’s just beautiful

Names valentine

but valentines days already over

So

The Shape of Water

“I would say this is the kind of film that’s more of an experience rather than a movie. Walking out of it, it feels like you just had a really beautiful, odd and emotional dream. ”

This dude really hit the nail on the head

This week’s been rough

Ever since I’ve moved back on campus, I’ve had to adapt

This whole year has been about adapting – there has been little of a constant

Honestly, ever since I moved to America, my world has just been flipped on its head

I’m still dealing with how to deal with everything

There aren’t too many extended times where I feel like I’m just good

That life is just good

Life was good today

Most of the time I worry

Most of the time I have this anxiety

That things aren’t going to work out

That if I am in a group setting I’ll be the one in the back with no one to talk to

The people I truly

truly

Appreciate the most

Are the ones that go up to the people in the back of the room and sit down and try to talk to them

They might be shy

They might not be

They might just be in a tough stretch of their life

They might just need someone that gives them a bit of attention

A little bit goes a long way for someone who lays in bed trying to think of which people are friends who would put you first over anyone else

Today was a nice day

I’ve had anxiety going to lunch or dinner

In serveries

I don’t really know where to sit and I don’t know if I will have friends there in the servery to sit with

I’m not afraid to just sit alone

But sitting alone does something to you

Today I sat alone in my room

Paper plane with a mountain of food

(I’m trying to bulk up and gain some weight)

Loads of wings

Those little personal pizzas that taste like cafeteria frozen out of the box Costco pizzas that are so good

(one and a half of those)

Broccoli

Waffle fries

A piece of grilled chicken

Some cucumbers and some green beans

Just sat there and watched Ball in the Family, the Ball brothers’ Facebook show

Dude pulled his sons out of college and HS to play ball in Lithuania professionally

Good move?

We’ll know in a few years

That was fine – then I worked with people on this algorithm for like 3 hours

Times the graph matrix was squared was the least paths from node i to j and the number inside the matrix was the number of those paths there were

Still have to write all this shit up tomorrow homework’s due on Monday

But tomorrow’s the Super Bowl

So haha

Ate dinner with friends from the leadership camp

Was going to ramen but line was fucking outrageous so we settled for Thai

I don’t think I’ve gone to an amazing Thai place in America yet

It was good but not amazing

Talked about Slovenia and Slovakia and Canadian indigenous peoples

I think what has made me feel empty is the fact that parties are/have been going on and I just haven’t had people to go with

OR I do but it isn’t conveniently there for me

So I feel trapped and incapable to move

For dessert we went to Amy’s ice cream, where I got this strawberry ice thing

Cause lactose intolerance

I chose that over some vegan ice cream – probably should have tried the vegan stuff

The movie tonight I watched with my freshman was very interesting

Makes me feel like I want to take on more creative projects

I’m trying to make music instead of going out on the weekends

Garageband is a bitch

Really wanted to title this Man of the Woods too

Justin Timberlake’s new album

Strange songs, strange vibe, weird combination of sounds

Don’t know if it’ll grow on me but one song I do like is Living on the Land

Heard it for like 5 seconds during the livestream of the hearing party during its release

and the tune just kind of stuck

Listening to it now

Music is inspired by like Pharrell, big on Charlie Puth’s new stuff, funky Daft Punk RAM sounds

trying to figure out how to sample

Transitions are difficult

But the most difficult is having enough content for a song

I feel like I may have a nice hook but I can never get a full song

Can write a nice melody for the chorus but can’t keep that shit up for the verses too

So I haven’t been able to even get to writing lyrics yet

Maybe I should write lyrics first

“Unable to perceive the shape of You, I find You all around me. Your presence fills my eyes with Your love, It humbles my heart, For You are everywhere.”

I believe everything will fall into place

Wish love would

but you know how life goes